I only blame myself
When my child was slain.
There's now a hole in my heart
Filled with sorrow and pain.
I'd give anything in this world
To know his or her name,
But I made a bad choice one day.
Now my life will never be the same.
What I did was wrong,
And now I know,
Because the pain I feel inside
Is telling me so.
I wish it was all a bad dream
Or a nightmare I could forget,
But it's not, and it will stay with me forever
For it's something I'll always regret.
My girl and I made a decision,
But there's something we forgot,
About the person's life we were affecting,
What he or she might have thought.
We acted very selfish
And thought only on our behalf.
Now we'll never see our child smile,
Speak, or even laugh.
I will never have another
That I can not provide for and love,
'Cause the next time I won't be forgiven
From the man up above.
Jesus, please forgive me
For the decision I made that day.
I'll have to live with it the rest of my life
And forever I will pay.