If I Could Have Said It Before
By Amanda Quoma
(Contact: AmandaA214@aol.com)
In memory of Nicholas J. Milano
Passed away November 16, 2000
When I heard the news I said it's not true,
Because something like this cannot happen to you.
In the movies it's fake, so it's fake here, too,
Because you can't go because I love you.
The slightest movement, you would be here today.
I just wish you didn't hit your neck that way.
As you went for roses for the girl you love,
I don't think you thought
That you were an angel summoned above.
You didn't realize it until the car came your way.
To our friends and your family,
I wish I knew what to say.
I try to be strong to keep my head held high.
Though deep down inside I wish I too would die.
I live without a good friend,
Without you being there.
Like you were before is not a life I would share.
The feeling of emptiness overwhelms me
Every 16th because it's the day,
The horrible day,
Somebody wonderful passed away.
You were too good for this world,
Too good for our being.
I think I understand the reason of your being.
You were sent to make our lives a little better,
But now that you're gone my eyes are always wetter.
The day you became an angel
Is the day I lost that feeling
That I am invincible
And with that thought I am now dealing.
I watch around and am careful who I am with,
Because being too young to die is a myth.
You proved it to me and many others that day,
That even the nicest people die some day.
I asked you please
Don't go back to her today,
And instead you went for her roses,
And now in a coffin you lay.
I wish you had listened
So I could tell you about my secret love.
I wish I could have told you before
You became the greatest angel of love.
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